So since my last entry I still feel the same. These same old shinanigans have got to end. I may feel all warm and nostaligic now while im high and that little green herb may seem very close to me being who I am that moving away is almost like denying MYSELF?!?! Spliff has become like my little pet jinn, my small gold lantern that i can rub and feel free. The smoke forever reminds me oh u love to smoke leila smoke me more enjoy me more. I even find those aroound me forgetting this is actually positive and pushing me into choices which are wrong harram and make God angry. I have been blessed with so many things the least I can do is give up my greatest sin the little spliff foreever attached to my figertips. I need to take a grip and remember what important is.
So I guess all I can i can really ask is will I or wont I?
About Me
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- Born in the north of England to an Algerian father and Greek, German mother I was destined to stand out and be different. Although many envy my multicultural background it is the one thing that has given me everything whilst simoultaneously taking everything away. My life is full of tentions frictions pulls in opposite directions and I have been born under these circumstances but through the power of God I pray to find clarity, simplicity and inner calm and peace. This will be my greatest struggle in life. Im sure.
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